Hopes and dreams.........

(I, personally took the picture above btw)

Gooood evening guys!

Just got back from maths studying with zul and we got starbucks and i have a maforking headache. Caffeine intake was too high i guess? i don't even know.......... So, I rushed home to complete my Reflection Journal and i thought my RJ was well thought out.... Right? 

So anyways, here are my 2013 reolutions

x run a marathon

x not fail any module

x help my little brother with his studies

x be extra hardworking this year

Here's just a few, I'll add more resolutions when I remember 'em yeah? Cool. Till then chao!

Lots of loooooooove, 

Ally

2013 dawg

Happy 2013, fools!!!

2012's has been a pretty good year, not much happened but i did become wiser and stronger and better. I hope 2013 brings me more wisdom and bring in all the positive people and get rid of the negative ones! I wish you all love and happiness and joy and may smiles and laughter fill your life and may God bless each and every one of you!!

Love,

A 

“Do not underestimate the power of a humble drop of rainwater. It may not have the overwhelming strength of a tsunami, but when consistently dropped on a surface over long periods of time, canyons and caves can be carved out of solid earth.”

wow just wow. 

Hi, so how have you all been my little blawners? haha feel like setting up a store online what do you all think?

Love, Ally :-)

How do you sleep

Itching to blog on what I feel right now... So here's to me being me!

Look, I don't know what I'm doing with my life really nothing seems to click together. Learning materials science seems like just about right this one time, now I don't even know what I want any more. I feel lost, my soul that is. Living with mom and dad doesn't seem right.

 I've always known that I am an independent child. Takes even a blind man and a mute a total time spend of just one second to know that. Since it has been very obvious since 1995, the moment i  was squeezed into the world. Hell, maybe at that point in time, I didn't want my mother's support to push me out of her.

Yeah well some may say don't you consider Singapore being your home and don't you feel a little homesick once you're out? Truth is, yes. I will miss the buzz here. Not so much of the ignorance and the racism of the people here. Mostly the bond with people I grew up with. Mostly the places I lived as a child growing up to be a woman. Mostly the sadness, joys and emptiness that I feel 87% of the time. Most of all, I will miss the person who I used to be. That independent little girl with the perfect family with the perfect hopes and dreams.

Ruin is what caused it all to shatter and made her feel empty. Maybe someday shadows of the little girl might come back on a sunny afternoon and hopefully they have enough duct tape to tape all the pieces together... maybe a hot glue gun might work? Who knows

Hopelessly looking for old chat logs

Today, I decided to have a lil peep peep at my old msn chat conversation. Greeted me with 0 chat history and I was depressed. Then i remembered I had 56425453 computers and I switched it all on and signed in to my name.
Sadness cloud decided to hover as I realised those computers were all repaired and EVERY history that was in the computer were all ERASED. Great!
So to my dearest friend in Canada, the only source of conversation I had with you are all gone and these messages are what's left of you.

Taylor swift's cheese songs

You know those hipster tweets that says if you listen to Taylor, you're automatically gay? Ah yes well i guess i'm gay now am i not?

It's two days away from semester 2 and It has been like what few posts before when i said i'm very afraid of what my semester 1 friends are going to be like. Same thing here so I think I should just chill when It's the first day of school and be like 

And when the class ends I will be like

aaaaaaaaaaaaaand just get my ass home. I mean we'll see how it'll work out maybe I'll get my fat ass some boyfriend or two within the first day, doubt it hahahhahahaahhahah right ok wish me luck and 

"let's get some and live while we're young" to the wise words of 1 Direction

i................. just kidding? Till then!

B), 

Ally

oppa gangnam style and your amaze-balls

Yep I'm typing this right now on my bed, listening to Ron Pope and current emotion check: happy.

So today I feel like hercules and that i can get through life, i think. I feel, yes maybe. Give Andrew Belle's In my veins a listen, you'd be surprised how amazing you feel while listening to that tune. Though I feel like i cried a few time this year, I feel stronger, better and probably invincible. 

"Today is the first day of the rest of your life" 

So enjoy & it don't take it for granted, if you have a lover/family/friends give them a call and say how much they mean to you.

 I'm sure it would make them happy and make you feel good :-)

 

 

 Till then, I'll leave you with this to ponder upon:

 "Endings are inevitable. Leaves fall, we close the book, you say goodbye. Today is one of those days for us. Today we say goodbye to everything that was familiar, everything that was comfortable. We’re moving on. But just because we are leaving, and that hurts, there are some people who are so much a part of us they’ll be with us no matter what. They are our solid ground, our north star. And the small clear voices in our hearts that will be with us. Always."

Be strong my ducklings, 

we'll get through someday.. somehow

xoxo,

Allygator